Ravings of a Madman

I'm not entirely sure what the future holds for me. I doubt it will be anything good. Then again I don't think very highly of myself. If you know me at all you know that I'm highly unmotivated. I guess it's my biggest character flaw. Perhaps the reason for this is the fact that my self esteem isn't very high. I do have many friends who really care about me and a supportive family but... I just don't have any idea what to do with myself. I've never been sure about what I want to do. I mean I'd love to be in a metal band but I can't play guitar to save my life, let alone the drums. I love to make people laugh, but I'm not sure that I could write my own material or anything like that. Generally I just play off of the things other people say. That may be my calling however, I've always enjoyed laughing and love the feeling when I am able to make others laugh. I just don't know where to start. I listen to many Rifftrax and think I would like to do something like that. Rifftrax are audio tracks for movies "riffing" or making fun of movies done by the guys who did Mystery Science Theater 3000 (Bill Corbett, Kevin Murphy, Michael J. Nelson). It is very much like what they did on MST3k except they are making fun of new movies and sometimes have guest riffers. If you are interested I suggest you donate or buy some of the files here. Anyways I think I'm all tapped out for blogging right now, I'll write more later.